Learning to Set Goals

Although I have woken up every morning to see written on the mirror, “What are you doing to make this the best year of your life, so far?” what am I doing to make this year the best I have ever lived? Despite doing the two weeks of P90X with my wife, “deleting” my facebook page (for a whole day), and wearing my TOMS everywhere, there hasn’t been much success in changing my life. Part of it, I think, is the fact that I haven’t set any goals to achieve this.  So, setting realistic goals in my life is something I need to do. I hate to admit it, but my father was right... Actually, I talked to him recently about doing this and he said that for about six years he kept a "goals journal," writing his goals in each year, and while he may not have accomplished all of his goals, he shared with me how that wasn’t necessarily the point. In setting the goals and aiming for their outcome, he saw how things have happened and changed in his life based on striving for those goals, making him a better person whether or not goals where completed.

This made me think about all of the things that have made this year the best I have ever lived: Starting a new, fulfilling job of ministry with the CCO at Kenyon College; working part-time in a kitchen (something I’ve always wanted to do); spending time hanging out with one of my favorite singer/songwriters (and his incredible friend); finding reconciliation in my own relationship with my father; reading books that I have always put off; finishing our own musical endeavors (http://zenandjane.bandcamp.com) with more to come; starting to discover what it means for my wife and I to live in community with others; writing a book with one of my best friends; learning what it means to cherish and connect with friends over distance and time; facing my own introverted fears, sticking up for myself, and confronting my passive aggressive nature (with a lot of help from Jennifer). Honestly, I can say that this has been the best year I have ever lived, so far, and I am ecstatic to say that, but going on from here, I want to be able to say that next year and the year after that and the year after that… So, perhaps setting those goals is the next step in my process.

A Life Well Lived.

I am in the process of reading Leroy Barber’s book, New Neighbor, and in one section a woman talks about how “this was the most well lived year of my life, so far…” Those words really struck a chord with me. What if instead of New Years resolutions we dedicated ourselves to living the most well lived year of our life? Obviously, the “how?” would look different for each one of us, but can you imagine saying to yourself, or community, year after year, “I want this year to be the most well lived year of my life”? What an amazing, even epic, statement this is!

So, what will you start doing, now, to make this the most well lived year of your life? I’m serious. If you’ve looked at my last blog, these two books have truly inspired my to live well, so if you are also feeling this way about your life I want to talk with you about living. Challenging each other, accountability, whatever word you want to attach to it, I’ll share with you the “how?” and vice versa. So, send me a facebook message and we’ll get started on this, today, together, knowing that not by our own strength can we live better lives, but through God’s strength and power in our lives.

For the Beauty of the Church: A Book Review

     I often wonder, as an artist myself, why the church has such a hard time integrating the Arts into services or ministry. For those of us that have followed the works of C.S. Lewis or Francis Shaeffer in dealing with Christians in the Arts, it seems there isn’t much more to be said; that we as the Church are at a dead end when it comes to the Arts. Well, if you are in that mindset, as I was, then For the Beauty of the Church is exactly the kind of book for you. 

     From the beginning, I was not too excited to read yet another book on “Casting a Vision for the Arts,” especially through the introduction as the editor walked me through what I was about to begin reading. Apart from any hesitancy, I continued reading finding a gold mind of insight and beauty from people across the spectrum of the Church. The book itself is a “community” of people coming together to cast this vision, not only for the Arts, but for the Church as well. Andy Crouch, Eugene Peterson, and Lauren Winner, just to name a few of the contributing writers, all came together to paint a truly diverse revelation that can be applied to those churches looking for ways to integrate the Arts, and its many facets, into their repertoire of worship. 

     If you are a pastor, student, artist, or even just a lover of Arts, For the Beauty of the Church creates the perfect balance of Spirit moved interpretation on the Arts and culture making truths of God’s cultural mandate.

Tags: Arts, community, gospel, beauty, worship, theological framework

Justice Socially

1. 25. 2011, 12:38 am

I haven’t blogged in a while. I guess it’s not so much that I haven’t had anything to say, but I just haven’t wanted to admit my current state of apathetic reservation. In actuality, I’ve been thinking a lot: God, my own action or lack thereof, what it means to live in community, social justice. The only conclusion I’ve come to is that I’m an awful person. I want to be passionate about social justice issues, particularly when working with college students attempting to teach what it means to live as restorers, but it’s hard for me to get excited or upset about things I don’t see. Recently, I’ve been reading a lot about this new wave of Christians that are taking things much more seriously, holistically, than previous generation (as an over generalization). They are choosing to be an incarnation of Christ, rather than preoccupied by things; embodied, not distracted. This is an area of “social justice” that I think I can live out in a more real way; that is to say that, I’m not overwhelmed with the ideas of world hunger and other large social injustices living on a college campus, but I can be completely present, giving individuals the attention they deserve as Imago Dei, in the image of God. I can begin to change the way I see people, which in turn allows for the betterment of all people, or in a sense, social justice. I haven’t fully discovered what this will look like at a practical level (except through what I’ve already shared), but I know it involves active participation in an arena that I can tangibly effect. None of this is to say that the larger social justice issues are not important, and in a way of confessing, via this imagined web chat, I admit that something I need to work on is visualizing what part I play in God’s restoration of our world. I digress. Being completely present is a small step that I will attempt to make in presenting Christ’s presence (in me and in this world) more fully to others. An undertaking that I pray I am not alone in.

For His Kingdom’s sake,

Zane

Confronting My Passive Aggressiveness and Apathy

11. 29. 2010, 10:37 PM

For those of you that know Jenn and I well, we have a heart for community. That is, one day we long to live communally with other believers, but until then we plan to live in our community as true neighbors in whatever ways we can. I question my ability to do either of these as a passive aggressive product of my generation’s apathetic attitude towards most things in this world. Galatians 2:11-16 shows Paul confronting Peter, because of Peter’s hypocrisy, with Paul’s driving force not being self-defense or selfishness, but rather in defense of the gospel (v. 14). I look at how many times I have crawled into a hole when facing conflict, instead of living out the gospel in my life by acting lovingly towards my brothers and sisters. If I am to be an agent of reconciliation, shouldn’t I be open to critique, even in my own life?

I recently was directed to a video from “The Skit Guys,” and while I am not usually one to promote Christian propaganda, this video was quite showing of how I (and many others) react to being molded by God or His chiseling away of our sins (check out video here: http://www.skitguys.com/videos/item/gods-chisel/ ). I often pray that God makes me into the man He wants me to be, but many times I don’t want to go through the pain that it causes. So, how does this connect to the idea of community and confrontation in that community? I am realizing that my method of taking the easy way out, by ignoring or avoiding, is not a gospel-centered way to deal with confrontation. Instead, just as Paul showed, I ought to confront sin with a proper motivation (in love) confidently (through faith), inviting relationship, and providing a way for reconciliation (grace and truth). Also, keeping in mind Jesus' Matthew 7:3, "speck of sawdust" analogy, I should be just as open to others confronting my own faults.

Lord, help me to be an agent of reconciliation in the conflicts throughout my life and more importantly to show your truth and grace in and through my every moment.

For His Kingdom’s sake,

Zane

Forgiveness

11.16.2010, 1:26 AM

I lay awake considering what it truly means to forgive another person.  In Christianity, the first step of coming to faith is admitting that you are a sinner.  So, then what does this mean in light of God’s forgiveness of our sins? Is the first step in our hands, that is to say that we ask for forgiveness, or, because of Christ’s death on the cross for the forgiveness of sins, has the first step already taken place?  Saying that God’s love for us, thereby Christ’s death, is a gift would imply that the first step in the Christian life is to take this forgiveness that Christ has given. Ultimately, in doing this, we should begin to see how sinful, or otherwise unworthy, we are to receive such a gift (causing us to be eternally grateful via good works, extending the same gift to other, etc), but the gift is there for us to receive despite whatever state we are in, or in whatever condition we believe we are in, apologetic or not (meaning those “things”, or right ways of thinking, are not what make us forgiven).  To say that I must first accept my own faults, by way of apologizing for them, puts God’s grace into such an idea of my own design that I make Him unable to forgive me of my sins, stealing the grace out of the gift, no longer allowing it to be just that, a gift, but turning it into an achievement that I control from my own receiving.  Or could it be that the receiving of the gift, which is of forgiveness, and the admission of unworthiness, which is our sinfulness, are one in the same? 

Back to why I am being kept in this wakeful state; I am finding it hard to understand forgiving others. If it is the combined powers of confession of sin and acceptance of Christ’s grace that provide forgiveness for us in God, what of a person that does not confess of their sins, yet freely accepts the forgiveness another offers? Obviously, in the above example of Christ’s forgiveness, these two ideas (confession and acceptance) go together, but in many man-to-man scenarios this may not always be the case. Take, for example, brothers who have fallen into some sort of enmity due to many actions of brother A (we’ll call him Adam) to brother B (Bob). After a long struggle, Bob decides that his relationship with Adam should be reconciled and goes to his brother. They speak and come to the conclusion that, while Adam also seeks to be reconciled with his brother, he is not apologetic towards Bob and believes that Bob should be remorseful for his own actions. Even after admitting his own faults in the situation, Bob still finds Adam unwilling to look at his own mistakes from the past that have led to the hostility between these brothers. In this circumstance, does/can Bob still forgive Adam when Adam feels as though he is not the one who is responsible and unwilling to repent? Does not my own forgiveness, in Christ, have to start from my own position of humility? How then can I forgive a brother that does not see what they have done to hurt me?

I should start by quoting Paul, talking about love, “in that when we were still sinners, Christ died for our sins.” This suggests that while we may not have been alive, Christ still willingly sacrificed Himself in order to forgive the sins that we had not yet committed, against Him or anyone else, in order to be reconciled with us. So, how much more should we, as forgiven individuals, forgive those that have committed sins against us? When Peter asks a similar question, Jesus tells him that he should forgive an infinite number of times (seven times seven).  The answer seems so obvious now that I lay out my thoughts on the screen.  I think of the wondrous hymn lines that sing out, “My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought! My sin, not in part, but the whole, is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more. 
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!” Who then am I, as an agent of reconciliation in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, to refuse forgiveness to a brother or sister? I am a no one that is offered nothing, but love, and find it essential to offer you the same, despite whatever state you are in, or whatever condition you believe we you are in, apologetic or not. Love is a gift neither of us deserves; I pray that we do justice by it.

For His Kingdom’s sake,

Zane